“It’s not a race, it’s a marathon” ~ Unknown
“You may have won the battle, but I’ll win the war” ~ Unknown
Do you ever feel like you’ve expended all of your energy before the end of the race? It’s a commonality in most people and although I’m not speaking sexually, the title worked well to captivate your attention (I’m smiling right now).
My friends, a lovely group of individuals, secretly planned a going away dinner for me. This act absolutely amazes me. One, because I don’t see myself as someone warranted of such kindness and two, because I was just going to walk into the night like a thief. My dedication to my mission and trip abroad has given me tunnel vision. For that, I apologize and I’m eternally thankful for everyone’s support and well wishes, its meant a lot.
The surprise party was thwarted by my trip delay. The start date of my new job is up in the air and spending my St. Patrick’s day birthday alone is out of the question. It’s a great day to share your birthday and I prefer to drink Guiness stout with me mates.
This brings me back to premature ejaculation, the longer I stay here, the more I feel like I’ve used all my gas in the first few laps without a pit crew to fill me up. Most individuals within my realm of friends don’t truly understand what I’m planning or why I’m doing it. Support from people who have no idea what’s on my mind is both a gift and a curse. It’s a beautiful thing to have people believe in you, but it’s also a horrible thing to look in their eyes and know they don’t believe in your journey. It doesn’t offend me, but it makes speaking to like minded people difficult.
You can either be a glass half empty or glass half full person, I’m the latter. It’s almost as if I’ve been sipping that half full glass of water and there’s no well in sight to keep it level. My challenge now is to remain erect, strong and determined. Becoming flaccid and deflating is not an option.
Jack Nicholson was once asked, what would you have done if you weren’t an actor? His response, “I would have been homeless. There was no Plan B, this is what I wanted to be”. Will Smith said, “Having a Plan B distracts from Plan A”.